Hey.

Don’t cry for me.

I’m doing well.

At times I’m down, when I seek recognition in the outer world, from people, from a country, from an institution, etc.

Since these sources have nuances, I get disappointed at times.

Over the years, have been learning to find recognition elsewhere.

I’ll just share with you where. Before that, let’s speak about every human’s need for…

…recognition.

We have it. Let’s not sweep it under the rug, or deny / ignore it.

Since it’s there, we need to deal with it.

When recognition comes from a worldly source, it is fickle at best. It inflates us, and makes us look for next-level stuff. And…

… it is fleeting.

A tool for manipulation.

Addictive.

Not leading to lasting happiness.

Not aligning with my core values committed to pursuits of good health, happiness, long-term contentment, and efforts towards no regrets.

Therefore – avoidable.

Stopped looking for it in humans or human-related paraphernalia, physical or institutional.

My recognition has been coming in something more natural.

Numbers.

At times in health numbers.

At other times in financial numbers.

In universal numbers.

Don’t have numbers to measure happiness and contentment. Can feel or not feel them though, and that’s a good enough marker. Regrets can be numbered, and eliminated down to zero. That’s wonderful.

Since I’ve chosen numbers to be my source of recognition, my entire focus in the endeavour to feel recognized focuses on health, financial and universal numbers.

Numbers speak to me. If they are recognizing my efforts, they don’t hide it, and I can read their message fast. When they don’t like my efforts, they are outspoken, and I get their drift, hopefully even faster. Even a preliminary health number out of whack? Springing into action to get it back on track, for example.

Downside?

Constant measuring and monitoring causes stress.

Yes, numbers can be stressful, since they trigger stress hormones, especially when they are out of whack.

Remedy?

Quality sleep.

Recovery.

Healthy intake.

Creation of good causes.

Befriending…

…numbers.

Finding a way to not get stressed at unusual numbers.

Like now. When financial worlds are crumbling, what keeps one numerically motivated? It’s the pursuit of a low buying average multiplying upon recovery. Since one has planned and kept oneself liquid for exactly this scenario, crumbling financial worlds are feeling comfortable, because the plan is being implemented. No other reason.

Or like recently. My HbA1C was out of whack. Hadn’t been monitoring for a while. No one’s looking – ok let’s binge…

The upside of constant monitoring is that one sees the effects of a binge immediately, and that alone causes one not to want to binge – the fear of seeing the effects of one’s stepping out of line.

Bottomline – monitoring has upsides, and downsides. The biggest upside is the wooden cane of the teacher, waiting to hit you, should you step out of line. The biggest downside is stressful obsession.

In the middle, there’s a path that brings happiness, contentment – and – recognition, even when one has chosen for oneself that these entities come from…

… numbers.